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Being at where you are now is normal, it happens to everyone and i believe you are not the only one here. The only thing you need now is time and patience and it will all come together.
That program looked rather difficult to make so I wouldn't feel discouraged if I were you. I love your concept and your ideas regarding it's execution and I know you'll be able to present it just perfectly.
I find that I'm so much more successful with making patches when I have a large chunk of time to devote to it. 5 hours of patching in one day is so much better than 5 1-hour sessions in a week because I get in a groove and start thinking in Max terms. Good luck.
John Mayrose, LU's max/msp guru, told us the learning curve is very steep. You have a project and determination and lots of people around LU to help. Set aside the time...